Looking back on my life I don't even know what I was thinking 8 years ago! True Love? Really? How was I supposed to know what true love was until I knew what my parents did for me? Now that is True Love! They were there when I needed to cry, when i was upset, and when I just needed to laugh! They were there through thick and thin and at the age of 15 I didn't even know that kind of love was possible!! I didn't really know much about Love till I sat in front of a computer screen looking at adoption agencies for my unborn daughter! I was looking with tears hitting the keyboard and i KNEW once again that I could not make any decision on my own! I needed my parents help! Even when it took them weeks and months to be ok with the idea that their baby girl was going to have a baby they were there.. They took me to appointments, they held my hand when I cried. They saw my confusion. They knew that i couldn't do any of this without them! My mom stood behind me faster than my dad but I was his little girl and he just had a tough time coming around. I am so glad my parents didn't throw me out or make me get married to the mistake of a boy. They looked me right in the eyes and said two Wrongs don't make a right! It took me awhile to understand what they meant about two wrongs? My baby wasn't a mistake or a "wrong". She than explained to me that Sex before marriage was wrong which i knew was not how I was brought up. Also marrying a man I didn't love was very very wrong! Now 4 years later I am married and am in love with every thing that is going on in my life! The good, the bad, and the even worse! As I sat watching my baby girl go to preschool for the first time I realized that Love my parents had for me and showed for me is what I am feeling now! I sat and watched her play and put her back pack in her cubby with tears running down my face! I sat and watched her smile and run up to me and say," Mommy I love you and I am excited for my first day of school!" That is what I was waiting for! That unconditional Love!
Now I don't know what the future will hold but I know that the love I have for my husband, daughter, and extended family will get me through! As my parents get older I know that death will be in the future(very far future i hope). I just want to soak up every last hug and kiss i can get! I hope they can see more grandchildren and i hope they get to walk my sister down the aisle! I hope they are here in our hearts and lives forever. I know that my baby girl that is not so little anymore is going to grow big and strong and her imagination will get the best of her at times but I know she can do it! So the question ends with,"How will my life change?" The answer is, It will change and it will change for the good, bad, and at times the worst. We can make it through though!
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